Wednesday, October 08, 2008

This is for me bro XD

I was in Times the Bookshop, Pavilion when I saw this:


The Complete Calvin & Hobbes

And then I turned it to the side:


Woo... Volumes 1-3

And then I turned it to the back:



Wakakaka.... Zhen Yu, touch enough la k?

Monday, October 06, 2008

I'm on Facebook

After such a long period of resistance and countless friend invites, I joined Facebook.

I have to say, Facebook is cool XD

Friday, October 03, 2008

I bought my own birthday present XD

I'm totally loving the Secret Garden CD I bought... After I proudly displayed my purchase the other day, it turned out that I had actually bought what was supposed to have been my coming surprise birthday gift XD Hah! My mum and sis will just have to figure out something else...

As for the Mandarin novel... I have so far managed to finish the 1st chapter. Hopefully, I will know enough words and understand enough to make out the story XD


Monday, September 29, 2008

Shopping with Pris!

Went shopping with Pris today! Though we are so close, the amount of times we've been out together can be counted on one hand (!). So, I was really looking forward to the trip =D We decided to go to Sunway Pyramid 'cos we almost never go there and there was the new wing to explore! So we met in KL Sentral and then went to Subang by KTM together. Then we took a bus. Had a VERY filling breakfast at Toast Box before walking and browsing around.

Went to TGV for a movie - Mamma Mia! (the exclamation mark is part of the title). I wasn't really hyped to see the movie but I was fine with it. The movie was good fun... if you're not expecting a solid story which would leave you thinking about it, it's actually entertaining. I have a tendency to call it a "fluff" movie. Yeah... I know the creator and lots of articles state how they have issues that are still relevant and resonate with everyone - it didn't even occur to me until I read those reviews and articles. BUT, I have to admire Meryl Streep for carrying her role the way she did (it's hard to imagine her bopping up and down on a bed like a kid) though I'm not too sure how I feel about Pierce Brosnan singing (he obviously was the handsome one in the movie).

After that, went shopping a bit more. Bought a bag from Miss T with Pris. Then we went to Popular. Sat there browsing and reading for a loonng time. I couldn't decide which book to buy, so in the end, I got my first ever Mandarin novel 對不起,我想你 by 橘子.



The reason I bought this book was the synopsis:

有很長的一段時間,我不能翻閱我們的照片,
因為我不想哭,對著照片掉眼淚並不適合我。

有很長的一段時間,我沒有辦法去到我們曾經去過的場所,
因為回憶太擠,而當眾嚎啕大哭會讓我看起來很神經。

有很長一段時間,我不能夠說出你的名字,連聽也不能聽的那種不能夠,
因為我知道我會哭,未語而淚先流,

這句話只適合我寫,而不適合我做。
可是我其實一直在哭,在心裡哭。

我不知道幹什麼我要這樣,人前歡笑人後落淚,
我只知道你對我而言不太一樣,
不,
是很不一樣。

Ahh... how I felt... Picked it up straight away.

And then I also saw the CD of a new age duo I have come to love - Secret Garden. Love the packaging, and wavered with the promotion price of RM59.90 for 2 CDs and a DVD. Succumbed in the end, and exited the shop anticipating the feast of my ears XD


my beautiful Secret Garden CD

Dinner was a rather long story, but finally we went for dinner with Jeffrey and his friends in a restaurant in SS2, PJ. Went home anticipating our next outing =D

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Olympus µ [mju:] 1040

I bought a new camera! Technically speaking, my mum bought it and it's the family camera (cannot let the expense fall to me, you know). Actually, I'd been eyeing cameras for some time, surveying the models and comparing prices, all that - ever since our old, trusty Canon A410's CCD went whacko. I wanted a camera which could give me all the functions it had and more, not to forget fitting into the budget. And I couldn't find any camera which made me go - this is it. Until now! Haha... It's way over budget but, we're all happy =P


the Olympus µ [mju:] 1040

Especially love the Hot Chilli red casing! Haha... I actually fell for the colour before anything. Basic specs: 10 mp, 3x optical zoom and 2.5" LCD monitor. Has a cool panorama function I was trying to look for in all the other cameras. Was impressed when trying out the camera at the shop.

Best part of the deal was meeting a friend who works in the shop. Haha! Susanna's my senior from Sekolah Seri Suria. Even better, my mum knew her. I studiously kept quiet while my mum did the bargaining. Retail price for this camera is RM899. We couldn't slash anything off this price, but we got some freebies - 2gb Olympus XD Card (which is needed for the panorama function) worth at least RM189, a screen protector worth RM30 and 3 pcs of photo developing vouchers (unlimited amount for 0.33 sen each). Bought a leather casing for RM49.

Definitely a cave in the pocket... but as I said, we're all happy =P

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Study USA - The AEO Tour

So excited when I saw this tour! I was so tired of doing all the research online and was hoping for some human guidance. Went to KL Hilton around 5pm with mum. The education fair was kinda big actually. Or maybe the function room was spacious XD Too bad there weren't many universities near the area I was supposed to go. Only 4 stars (place marks) in the California state, and only 2 around Los Angeles. One, Southwestern Academy, wasn't even there which left me with only ONE college rep to approach.

El Camino College is in LA, which isn't really near the place I'm supposed to go, but we decided to just get some advice in general (after coming all the way). The man was quite nice actually. He's not nice in the smiling face kinda way, but rather in his dead serious, dry humour manner of speaking =D Got some important advice though. According to him, the universities in US generally don't accept international students into their freshmen (1st) year, which means they were only accepted for transfers. Normally, we would have to go to a 2 year college, and then transfer to a 4-year university into the junior (3rd) year. Interesting.

Came back and did more research. Apparently, the 2 yr college and then going for the last 2 yrs in university would work out even better. Because the fees for a 2 yr college is much cheaper than a university. And the datelines were much kinder (not here yet). Narrowed down selection of colleges to two (by distance) - Mount San Antonio College and Chaffey Community College.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The big US plan part 2

To update on the location in the big US plan, I was first informed that it was somewhere in Los Angeles. Upon Googling, I quickly discovered how big LA really was and I could be buried in search if I didn't ask for more information.


Google Map: Los Angeles

Upon clarification, aforementioned niece actually stays in a place called Upland, CA.
Where is Upland, I ask?
More Googling... Upland is approx. 30 miles east of LA.
How far is 30 miles, I wonder?
I ask my dad at night. My dad says, "About here (KL) to Seremban la...." What??
Here to Seremban would take like 1 to 1 and a half hours drive, depending on your speed.
Obviously, I was not going to study in LA.


Upland area (place marks are universities)

You can see some continuation in the 2 maps. Look for West Covina, Fullerton and Anaheim on the right side in the 1st map. Then look at the same 3 places on the left side in the 2nd map.

Apparently, Upland is rather near to a lot of universities, don't you think?

After more Googling, I am in despair. Many universities are already closed for registration for Winter (Jan '09) and Spring (Feb/Mar '09) semesters. The soonest is Fall (Oct '09) and the dateline is coming soon too.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

The big US plan

Though I have always dreamed of studying overseas, I have never once thought of going to the United States. There isn't really a reason to it, it just... never happened. Perhaps it was due to the fact that as I was studying Architecture, the States wasn't as viable an option as UK or Australia because the US degree isn't recognized by the board of architects here, PAM (ironic though it may seem considering the quality of education in US). I don't quite understand why PAM doesn't accreditate the US degree, but the biggest difference is obviously the education system.

I digress. (this line seems to be abused by bloggers a lot XD)

So what triggered the big US plan? The story goes like this: My mum has a former lecturer from her teaching college, Ms. Y. Ms. Y has a niece staying in US. Said niece has a family there with two kids. Said niece and husband are both doctors. Thus, they require a babysitter for their children. Niece wants someone who would stay for a longer period of time compared to those they're currently hiring. Niece asks Ms. Y (her aunt) to look for a babysitter, maybe someone who's interested to study in US so that the person can go there with a student visa. This babysitter would of course, take care of her children. In return, this student a.k.a babysitter would be given room and board for the duration of stay in the US. Which means, student only needs to take care of tuition fees and have almost all living expenses taken care of. Student will also get allowance from babysitting.

Apparently my mum told Ms. Y about my predicament (the no-money-thus-not-being-to-go-overseas thing) so Ms. Y thought I might be interested. And I am kinda interested actually. To have almost all your living expenses taken care of (except transport) when studying overseas is actually saving on more than half of what you need to pay. Thus began my research on the universities and courses I could take. And I found this:

If I decide not to continue Architecture, my horizon is far, and big indeed.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

I have a mental block

I had an interview this morning. And I'm probably going to thank this architect very much later in my life (if I manage to work out his advice) because he took so much time with me, and instead of a proper interview, it turned out to be a career counseling session. And I think I needed this very much too.

I don't know if I looked like I had a lot of problems, or if I looked like sometimes I feel like crap, but anyhow, Ar Don realized I wasn't whole-heartedly applying for the job. (Yes, if you didn't guess, I'm going to work for the sake of working because I don't want to waste away at home). So instead of talking about the job, we actually talked about why I wasn't doing my degree, and why did I really want a degree in Architecture.

It started with this question, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" I replied that I'd probably be doing my degree. Then he asked what was it that stopped me from continuing my degree. I said "money".

Him: Scholarship?
Me: I don't have the results to apply for it. (and I said a lot more in elaboration...)

He proceeds to draw a diagram:



Him: So, the way I see it, it doesn't seem like a possibility you can get your degree in the near/foreseeable future.
Me: Hmm...
Him: This degree, is it necessary to be in Architecture, or your aim is to get a degree?
Me: (after some thought) No, not really.
Him: So, your ultimate aim is to get a degree. It doesn't matter what the degree is in, correct?

I nod. It seems he's reached a conclusion about this strange little person sitting in him.

Then, we continue to talk about what would I do if I didn't do Architecture. He asks me what was my other interest - languages. I don't know how but it came to me telling him this -

I don't really know how long I can stay in Architecture. I don't have big dreams of opening my own architect firm or becoming a renowned famous architect. In fact, the reason I was compelled to study Architecture in the first place was this - I dreamed of building my own house. To be honest I probably started the course without really knowing what it was all about. But in the following years of study, I discovered that perhaps this was not something I can do for, I wouldn't say the rest of my life, but for a very long time in my life, at least. Three years including six months of practical training made me consider, if I had the resilience to continue on this long road to becoming an architect.

So, he said something to this effect, "There are three different types of people who study this course. The first, those who really have the passion for this, even if they struggle, no money, die die also must take this course. Then, there's the next group who just took the course and they're not the top scorers but they stick around and eventually become valuable with experience. Then, there's the group who take this course just because they cannot study something else."

I consider then... I have seen people with passion for Architecture, and I must say I'm not one of them; as such, I admire them so. He continues, "You might have had an inkling for Architecture. We have inklings for many things, you know. But maybe you lack the passion that will help you through."

"If so, why do you insist on doing Architecture? The way I see it, it seems you have some sort of a mental block. Architecture is so expensive and so time-consuming. Since you say you might not stay long enough to reap the labor of this, why do you keep banging your head on the wall?"

I say, "Maybe I'm just looking for closure... I think it would be something I'd look like and wonder on if I had finished it."

He replies, "Closure can also come with the decision not to do anything, anymore. You know, you can say, I've done it, it's not my cup of tea. I'm done," his two hands lying flat in gesture.

I didn't have much to say after that. We went through a little formality and talked about the job. Then, I left, with my thoughts in a mass of confusion. I felt like screaming and running away. As I have been doing ever since I graduated.

It's not something that I did not know about. The issues, the questions, they have bugged me for quite a long time, probably everything I hit a low in my studies. I have never questioned myself or felt so emotionally tired (in college) before.

That's it then. That's the long story that might come as a little of a shock to all my friends in college.

*Sorry that I'm so long-winded. Thanks for reading all the way to the end =)


The Rain and After

wishing for a story
a romance to unfold
a kiss so magical as to lift one off her feet
whisking her into happiness beyond the stars

her heart beat
so quickly she felt it would burst
she smiled
she ran and chased
like a butterfly after a whiff of flowers

but before she could reach
to touch if it was real
the fragrance faded
then she only smelt
the scent of rain and after

her wings drooped
she rested
the fragrance was gone
never to be found

she thought she caught a note
maybe here, no, there
she skipped
but her heart knew
its key and print
was not in the air
nor anywhere near her

but wait
what was that -
her wings raised
poised to take flight

in search of that elusive magic
her heart beat quicker
and she smiled like never before
but she took two steps forward
and then one step backward

though she tried
she flitted and danced around
alas! it was not meant for her
magic ran to another

rain fell
harder and stronger
it broke her wings
pierced her heart and wrung it dry

she lay
covered, battered
showered by the drops of rain
bathed in the scent
of rain and after

Friday, August 01, 2008

And finally, I bought HP7

I have all the books in the Harry Potter series. Finally! Hah... I know that's not an accomplishment, really, so many people are the same. But, up until recently I have only had the 6 books and last week, I finally bought the last, and seventh book!

Why the delay, you ask? You see, though I like reading Harry Potter, and though I may remember most of what I read which will make me seem like a very devoted fan (really it's not something I try to do), I am not one of the fanatics who would line up in front of the bookstore the 1st day it was launched (I was going to say I wouldn't pre-order as well, but I seem to have done so with the 4th book). And I'm not one who would pay over a hundred ringgit for a book. Fiction, that is. And even the RM69.90 price offered then at the hypermarkets couldn't entice me enough.

So, when I entered Popular bookstore last week and I saw this book - hardcover - on promotion (!), going for RM49.90 with an itsy bitsy purchase of RM10 & above, I took action immediately. I went home feeling rather giddy with joy and satisfaction, I must say.

And though it's been a while, I have meticulously steered clear from all the spoilers everywhere. So. I sat one day when I didn't have to wake up early the next as I had determined I would finish it in one sitting. And god... I don't know if my reading skills have deteriorated or is it a testament to J.K. Rowling's writing, but the book took forever!

I suppose it had something to do with the content - that feeling of forever, I mean. It certainly isn't the thickest book, and yet it felt like the longest. The content was so heavy and so emotional that it had me in tears within the 5 chapters. And seriously, did so many characters have to die?? I think my dad suspected me of going a bit bonkers because I was holding two thick-ass books (I was reading a bit in HP6 for reference) and having teary eyes.

I finally finished it at 7a.m. I had gone to my room and sequestered myself there since midnight. And I had started a few chapters before dinner. So I think it took me about 9+ hours to finish, headache notwithstanding.

Sometimes I feel like crap

I have not blogged for a long time. Sometimes, I feel like I found something to blog about. Then, the thought of getting to the computer (well, inspiration just has to strike when I'm AWAY from the computer, doesn't it?) switching on the computer, dialing a slow connection to the Internet, and then waiting patiently for the Blogger Dashboard to load, then waiting again for the page to post to load.... well, you can pretty tell what I'm getting at? You'd be pretty discouraged by then.

Then again, maybe it's just me.

What can I say? I'm a pro procrastinator. Especially now with nothing to occupy my time. As my mind searches for what it could be put to use to, I find something - my portfolio. Argh... this crosses my mind with dread. It is not something I want to face. Everyone thinks I can do a very good portfolio since I have so much time. Everyone does not seem to think that this much time can also mean the much time spent not doing the portfolio.

Due to the lack of a portfolio, I have not applied for any university for my degree. The education office has stopped calling. I think they have given up on me already. I... how do I really feel? In me, there is a yearning that I can go and fly off to a university where I would be pursuing something and filling my days in a more useful manner than now. Then I am brought back to the many problems that cause me to be held back here. Sigh... excuses, really. On introspection, I never really did enough to solve them. Maybe you have lost me somewhere in the middle of the paragraph. Doesn't matter... I have lost the desire to express myself in this matter.

Oh, and one of my friends who actually graduated this year (I stopped going to college sometime in the first half of last year) is going to Liverpool for his degree this September. We actually talked about going to uni together ages ago. And what am I doing now? Ah... I will miss him.

I'm not in a job as well. Well, I actually have done a couple of temporary jobs in the last month. Ever since stopping at Mid Valley, I have set up a craft stall at the Real Kids Olympiad at Bukit Jalil, continued my workbook editing, and set up a sand art booth at a promotion area at Leisure Mall. It is almost a week since the last one ended. And maybe tomorrow I'm setting up the sand art thing again. Ok... I don't know what's the point of this.

I think what I'm trying to say is... My life seems to be wasting away at the moment. Wasting away being at home, sleeping at all the wrong hours, eating one meal a day, watching all the DVDs at home, reading and re-reading storybooks, finding games to play on the computer and being unproductive.

Seriously. I feel like crap.


Sunday, July 20, 2008

It is my brother's birthday

Happy 18th Birthday, Zhen Yu!

(Ok... I'm gonna put things here that I'd probably never say to you in person for the simple reason these words would sound strange and make me feel funny while saying it as well).

Erm... I'm very happy that you were here for your birthday. Especially since you were gone for a little more than 3 months before that. The house feels kinda funny without you in it, actually. Made me wonder if it was that strange when I wasn't around.

Going out with you is fun... even the spending money part (though maybe later I won't feel so). And I haven't really gone out before you came back. And it was really nice to have someone I can "whine" to and act all crazy around. Hah.

Miss you very much when you're in Kuching. I think mummy and Yiyi would feel the same. And daddy too, though he doesn't say it. Haha... Hope you can come back soon... Too bad we're not loaded and we're not friends with Tony Fernandes =P

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Unfulfilled Dreams

Wrote this in my Form 5 year, in 2003. Entered it for an essay competition actually. Well, I'm publishing it here in its original form, which looking now, is a rather raw, or perhaps very honest style of writing.

Be warned: It's rather long.

Unfulfilled Dreams

The story I’m about to tell is something real, yet a fantasy. Though it may sound ridiculous to some, I’m sure most teenage girls have similar experience, perhaps, not with the same result. The experience brings with it a wealth of feelings, mostly intense. The story begins several years back:

For the year-end concert, we were going to put up a musical play, based on one of the most popular musicals of all time, The Sound of Music. Two classes of students teamed up, combined with two teachers. To prepare ourselves, we watched the film. Then, we took some excerpts from the show, deciding on three scenes, which included 3 songs. All through the three scenes, the girls and boys were to be paired, finally coming together to dance in the last scene.

Next, of course, we had to choose the cast. After deciding who will join the musical, the girls had the novelty of picking their partners. Two boys were left, the choice between a friend and me. We decided to draw lots. I slowly opened the piece of paper, my heart thumping in accordance to a young girl’s nature. Then, I saw a name. I didn’t really know him. I knew who he was, but we never talked much.

This boy, he was different from the others. He had an aura of indifference and mystery, compelling me to find out more about him. He was considerably tall and thin. Though he was quite good-looking, he never got much attention from girls, perhaps the result of his coolness. Well, that suited me just fine. I didn’t want other girls ogling at him. He was mine, and mine for admiration. That was what I thought at that time.

We had to practice dancing for the last scene, which was a ballroom scene. At first, we tried waltz. He did not want to put his hands on my waist, and he was not the only one. Due to the reluctance of the boys, we finally did a dance that required no touching at the waist. Looking back, I seriously enjoyed every moment we spent dancing together. I can remember, how both our palms were sweaty and how awkward we felt, looking at each other. At the concert, all of us gave a splendid performance and all loved the musical play.

The next year, we were placed together in the same class. How overjoyed I was! When our class decided to put together a class magazine, both of us were chosen as the graphic designers, adding more to my happiness. We discussed ideas and once, I even sat next to him in class. Though we never made the magazine, it was still an accomplishment for me.

All through the year, we talked and he asked me for my help on several occasions. I thought of all these as little, tiny signals he was giving me as a sign that he loved me. It had never occurred to me that I was reading a lot more into things that actually meant nothing.

We arranged a trip to Singapore, the whole form. I felt excited when I heard that he had registered for the trip. When I packed my clothes, I picked those that I thought looked good on me, as I wanted to look my best if front of him. I was bound to be disappointed. On the day we were supposed to go, I heard that two days before that, he was attacked by appendicitis and was to remain in the hospital for a week, therefore unable to go with us. I was greatly concerned.

The following year brought a season of changes, unfortunately not for the better. We were still in the same class, and at first, I did not notice anything. As usual, when an opportunity to speak to him presented itself, I took it. To my surprise, he did not respond. It was the beginning of the end of speech between us.

The experience and feelings I endured during this year was not something I would like to remember, but I knew, that I would never forget it. He began to avoid me, not even looking at me, as though I was a piece of garbage in his eyes and the sight of me disgusted him. Whenever he saw me coming, he would turn on his heels and walk the other way. It hurt me greatly and I was confused. What had I done to offend him?

Later, I found out his side of the story from his sister. According to her, there were rumours spreading, saying that I had a crush on him. He did not believe it immediately but then, it became too strong for him as more and more people told him that I like him. To him, I was nothing more than a friend, and I saw clearly my own misconceptions.

During this year, he openly showed his contempt for me. I felt so much tension whenever we were both in the same room. It might be just my sensitivity. He seemed to have a look of dislike and aloofness he specially reserved for me. After all, he had no reason to give that expression to anyone else. His actions always seemed to be contained in my presence. If he was laughing, the smile would disappear from his face and laughter died in his eyes. I felt wounded, yet strangely elated that I had the power to make him react in a different way. It helped boost my pride, but a cut was enlarging in my heart.

He treated me similarly for the next two years. He has not spoken to me for 3 years. Over the years, I would have expected my feelings for him to die. After all, it was just a crush. But it was not to be so. Instead, my feelings developed and changed from infatuation to respect. His ill treatment towards me seems to have made me like him even more. I am not sure whether to use the word “love” because that word seems to be too serious and I believe that word is used for adults.

I do not know if he will ever return my feelings. Now, I am content if I can just be his friend. However, he will always mean more to me than a friend and in some ways, he has made me grow up and understand more about emotions. The wound in my heart has not mended, as it is still under fresh attacks. I have given up hope that he will smile at me or say a word to me out of his own initiative. Perhaps this story is best remembered as a dream. Sometimes, it is better to remain that way. For now, it is an unfulfilled dream.


Thursday, July 10, 2008

今天,你生日到了。

其實,我並沒有忘記。

只是,我想。。。也許不讓你想起我比較好。

所以,我沒對你說,

生日快樂。

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Samsung L760:remembered

Samsung SGH-L760 (12.05.08-22.06.08)

Date Bought: 12.05.08
Date Gone: 22.06.08
Reason: Stolen without knowledge
Result: Pain stabbing in the heart bringing in a wish to curse the person who stole


*I just felt like remembering I once had a beautiful 3G slider phone.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Convocation 2008

Well... better late than never right? =P Anyway, here are some pictures from my convocation in One World Hotel last March...


Me and May Leng a.k.a. potat in our robes!


Us again =)


Me with Mummy and Daddy!


Sze Hsiung and me


Mummy, me, dear En. Rahim and Ar. Lee Chor Wah


Ar. Jimmy Lim, Mr. Ng, me and Mummy


2008 Architecture Graduates

Friday, March 21, 2008

For some who wondered, I'm now working. Not in an architectural firm, as most expect, nor am I anywhere design related. I merely took on a job that requires... nothing except reliability and a willingness to learn. To put it crudely, I'm in a job I'm over qualified for and thus yielding less income that I should have; that yet provides me with a huge learning curve.

What complicated sounding job is this, you ask? Haha... I'm in SALES *winces* Ask anyone who's known me for some time and you would know I don't welcome this field of work, or in fact, would almost abhor it. Many would ask me then, what am I doing here? I have no wish to answer this and as a matter of fact, I am unsure of it myself.

I digress. What I wanted to was in fact, promote where I'm working so that all people will come and buy what I'm selling. Hah! So, people, I'm currently selling costume jewellery in Mid Valley at a kiosk called Webfactory, last kiosk along the LG link to The Gardens. It's in front of the Laksa Shack and The Chicken Rice Shop.

Location - done. Next - product. The kiosk sells costume jewellery flown in from Korea by my boss. And all cantik-cantik wan (Of course, each to his own). Good quality stuff, so good quality price :P Don't expect 3 for RM10, ok? Erm... we have pendants, brooches, bangles, bracelets and earrings. Datanglah beramai-ramai and belilah berbanyak-banyak.

Ok... marketing stops here before it becomes lame.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I feel a funny emptiness in myself. Where and why - or who it's for, I'm still trying to tell. It might be just a bad mix of hormones. But it's just dragging me really low, into a deep, black hole.

Or maybe I just felt a yearning to write - to draw - or maybe just to do something with my hands that have lain idle for some time.

What else is there for me to grasp and what else is there for me to give up? My current job, my studies, my coming convocation, my further studies... My brother is going off to Kuching. I feel a ridiculous urge to cry. Unwittingly, tears come unbidden. They almost scared me, as I felt this familiar warmth in my eyes.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

兩首歌的副歌。。。 “會呼吸的痛” - 梁靜茹 及 “转身的时候” - 賴雅妍

想念是會呼吸的痛,

它活在我身上所有角落,
哼你愛的歌會痛,
看你的信會痛,
連沉默也痛。
遺憾是會呼吸的痛,
它留在血液中來回滾動,
後悔不貼心會痛,
很不懂你會痛,
想見不能見最痛。

每次当你转身的时候
我的泪在流
却只告诉自己让你
看到我笑容
每次当你转身的时候
我的心在痛
只能默默看着你
就消失在我眼中。